Fatty girl!

I took Amaya to the doctor yesterday so they could check her weight. Last week she was 6lbs 1oz... and now she''s 7lbs 6oz!! A pound and 5 oz in one week. I believe it's because I've been strictly feed her formula, and she's been taking almost 4 oz. at times, but usually 2-3. But yeah my lil angel is filling out now and gettin' chubby! ;)

So I told myself that I would be celibate at least until 2008, and if there was no one in my life I felt was worth it, I'd wait even longer. No reason in particular, just wanted to do it for self satisfaction. I reeaalllyy don't know if I can do it! There are a lot of temptations around me, but I'm going to try to be strong. It just seems like it's always on my mind now. I think I might also be kind of lonely, because I haven't had any affection from a man, let alone sex in 7 1/2 months. That is the longest it's been since I started dating when I was 15. If there's like a couple on TV, or people getting married, I so wish I had that. I'm trying to be patient and wait for something good to come to me. It seems like after I had the baby all these guys that I've been with in the past, and even some I never have, are popping up trying to "put their bid in", if you will. I'm just skeptical as hell now a days, and I don't even take it seriously because I don't know if they are being sincere, or if they have a hidden agenda. Nor do I want to go in the past and fuck around with something I've been there done that with, I need to be moving forward. *sigh* I don't know man, I'm just confused, lonely, horny, and that isn't a good combination. lol.

Amaya and her grandfather (so cute to me!):