Piece of mind?

Still haven't went into labor yet! No sign of contractions or anything either. I have been feeling a little more pressure on my.... pelvis area, I guess you would call it. So maybe she's dropped down a little bit. We'll see Friday at my doctor appointment.

So my due date (well, estimated) was July 1st.. so we're almost four days overdue. As far as the whole Allen/D situation goes... if it's Allens, my due date would have been around the 20th of June. So tomorrow I would be 2 weeks overdue (if it's his). The further I go along, the more I'm thinking it isn't his. It's still possible, but getting more unlikely with each passing day.

I've been talking to D at least once a day... trying to get on a level that we can be friends, and have nice friendly conversations... but, it seems impossible. He always ends up saying something that is ignorant or pisses me off. He is totally insensitive to everyone and anything unless it has to do with him and what he wants. If I have to deal with his ass for the next 18 years of my life, it's going to be interesting... to say the least. I can totally see him saying shit like "I don't want so-and-so around my daughter... why is she wearing this... why are you doing this... I don't like this", but I'm going to be the one raising her and dealing with her every single day, while he gets to visit when he sees fit. He works 6 days a week from 5pm - 3:30am. Sunday is his only day off... and I already know he isn't going to drive from Michigan to Chicago every Sunday. I would love for him too, and I would do it if I was him... but I know what type of person he is. I don't know, I don't even try to worry or think about it now, especially not being 100% sure that he is the father. I just know it's not going to be smooth sailing trying to compromise with him. I'm a nice person, and I will be fair with him... but once he burns the bridge it's over. I will go put him on child support, and have him on scheduled visitation, and if he doesn't show up (or have a damn good reason why he can't make it) I will go back to court and try to get all visitation removed. So really the ball is in his court, he just has to play the game by my rules.

*sigh* but yeah... I'm gonna focus on bringing her into the world before I worry about all that, haha. I'm going to go finish eating my boston kreme cake, hope everyone has a fun and safe 4th of July!