Poor Amaya.

She's been having blood in her diapers in the past 24 hours. Went to the pediatrician this morning, and he doesn't think it's anything we need to go to the emergency room for, and he said to wait 2-3 days to see if it stops. If it doesn't they are going to have to take a scope and check to see where it's coming from. I don't think she's in too much pain, because all day today she's been sleeping and she's awake now, just laying in her crib sucking on her pacifier. I hope she isn't in pain, and it goes away on it's own.

I tried to go back to breastfeeding but... that's not looking good. They checked her weight this morning too, and although she hasn't lost any, she hasn't gained either. She's only 6 days old so there isn't a big concern, but they told me I have to feed her formula, and if I want to nurse her I can do it for about 5 min. on each breast. I'm not sure if I'm going to do that because I don't want all this nipple confusion going on. I would love to breastfeed but it seems like she doesn't get satisfied. Maybe it's the way I latch her on, or maybe not. I'm probably going to talk to a lactation consultant and see. But for now I have to still formula feed her. They switched my brand though to Similac Isomil, and she seems to be taking it well, she's not as gassy.

I'm not really getting too much sleep, but it doesn't hit me until night time... which was hell last night. It is very hard, but when I look into her little eyes it makes it all worth it. I definitely have a new respect for all mothers, especially single mothers! My aunt is coming to take her in the morning for a few hours so I can get a break, thank God!! Love ya to death Amaya, but I am in desperate need for some me time.